two days I can't focused on my study...such a waste man!!she keep playing on my mind...damn !!
i don't know....maybe it just can't be helped...
she is a friend of mine....well.....I have quite a story with her back then few years a go....its actually a very complicated story indeed...back few years a go....hmm...its a bittersweet memories for me though...
it seem like old stories happened again....but this time it seem like to be more complicated and hard...hard for me....
i think better for me to tell you all the story....hahaha...i guess it can give me a little bit relief for my mind..
few years ago.....there is a girl....suddenly come to my life....she is not so tall....not so beautiful...just nice...cute maybe the most suitable word for her....
i recognize her ...i mean...really know her during a training....hmm....since that ....i think we begin to closed....a really had a crush on her by that time.....pheww....i don't know....why and how...it seem like i really liked her...
to make it more complicated,during that time...all that i know...that she is with somebody else....hahaha...when i heard that they are clashed....haa...i don't know how dumb of me to try to approach her....
I had a really good time..estacy indeed...but wen i dare enough to ask her about the relationship....its to late.....hahaha.....kes lambat la....she is back with that guy again!!
then,recently,i called her....it was a really long call....hahaha....th most long in my life i think...what start to make me to be in this situation when she states that she is single....again.....i don't know....maybe i kept my feeling toward her too long....the same feeling starts to blooming again.....and now...it start to give obstacle to my life ....phew.....
i don't know man....I just don't like to be tortured again.....will all kind of feeling that suck.....
D A M N
